Getting back to drawing after inktober has been difficult. Yesterday I asked you all for ideas, and one recommended I try drawing a fierce animal because normally I do more kind looking characters.

This is hard for me.

I started thinking about this more and realized I think there might be a more subconscious reason that I typically stick to the warm and fuzzy. At first I thought it was just naturally easier for me, and that may be so, but I realized it may be a form of projection on my part.

You see, I want to be kind, but I don’t feel like I am. I want to be friendly and supportive and encouraging and nice, but I don’t feel like I am. I feel more growly and snarly and grumpy… And I don’t like it.

That’s just a little moment of truth.

I may not look tough like a lion, but I feel just as stubborn and crotchety and hostile on the inside. I escape from this by making a happier world outside of me.

It may not be right… But it is so.

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